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Post by SAR01 on Dec 19, 2018 11:24:30 GMT -5
Yesterday all I could mange to do was cry. I hate days like that .. they sneak up and you don;t even know they are there..I had to re new anti virus for computers.. ok fine .. the guy got on the phone and I started crying, poor guy... I felt so sorry for him... I was telling him My husband took care of all this... anyway. today the sun is shining, and I got all my bills paid, and all the chores in the house done, and even had to bury one of the old timers,(almost 20 yrs old) Marky Mark. but I did it all, and no tears.. just peace in my that I am trusted to do all this....I'm holding up my promise to him that I would take care of his cats....and he is taking care of his ... one cat a month has crossed the bridge to be with "daddy". now I am waiting for my Chewy delivery, while I have one group of kitties outside in the fenced yard...then they go in and the other group gets to go out....in Summer they are out almost all day unless it is too hot. but winter they get the door opened if they want to go out, but usually don;t stay out too long. just my musings ...... 6 days from Christmas, 2018 Merry Christmas to all!
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Post by SAR01 on Dec 19, 2018 21:31:06 GMT -5
I ran errands today and hope I am pretty much done.. money to the kids for Christmas, they are all older and want money makes it real easy for me, then the adult kids will be getting money a bottle of wine and some home made special things they like I only make at the holidays and they can take them home.
I bought stuff to make my coffees and mochas and will make up a cookie platter for the few special one I need to get for. no one wants more "stuff" so food or drink or money works!
I smiled at everyone today and chatted with strangers, almost felt like the real normal me again. baby steps.
Marky Mark (used to be Mary) lol....was another that only would go to Dan, Dan used to carry him around...and he'd purr and nuzzle Dan, he went down hill in a slow decline when daddy left.... he tolerated the daily pets and combing from me, but you could see his disdain..lol well, last 2 days he laid and left me pet him with out running...I will share this here, and you can believe or not... I was going to call my friend to just "do it" cause I could tell he was losing ground. I started Dialing Rick's number about 3:30.... and I clearly heard..."Hang up...let him pass in his own home, I'll come for him tonight. "
I checked on him all last night till 11 :30 he was on his pillow resting comfortably. last thing I said to him was, you're going to see daddy soon, Mark mark!
this morning he was gone and had been for "awhile". he is with his daddy, probably in his arms and purring up a storm!
love you ladies!
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Post by csue on Dec 21, 2018 8:03:28 GMT -5
I've been so busy since I was done at the wreath shop and didn't realize I hadn't posted here for awhile. I see that everyone else is busy as well. I've had our tree up for about a week now. Fred, our , doesn't bother it at all. He'll go over and put his nose on a lower branch or an ornament but doesn't try to bite at anything. He did help me put the tree skirt down. I was straightening it out and he was pawing at it too to help. lol Farrah, Jeff and Piper were here last weekend. We all had a great time. Even Fred did, especially on Sunday when my sister, niece and great niece came to see them. I think Fred thought that everyone was here just to see him. He was so excited. lol Billy had another scan done at the hospital last Tuesday. He goes to his specialist on the 27th for the result of that. Hi Rugmaker, nice to see you here. I'm sorry to hear that you fell. You are in my thoughts. Sar, your tree is beautiful. I remember my first Christmas alone and the next 2 after that. It was like I was in the twilight zone. We were out yesterday and got groceries. We have everything we need before Christmas now and before the big we are getting. It's going to be very mild today and tomorrow with a lot of . High winds too so we'll prepare in case of a power outage. After the mild weather it will turn cold again and will probably be icy every where. I'm always afraid of falling too. Merry Christmas wishes to you all!
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Post by SAR01 on Dec 21, 2018 19:22:43 GMT -5
Csue, so happy for you... I hope down the rd I do find a nice guy as a companion.... I think. but yeah this will be my first Christmas alone... and then coming up on the anniversary date he passed... sometimes I swear he hasn;t left yet but I know he has, but he is very much letting me know he is "near". some times I just laugh and say you have things to do OVER THERE.... now git!...
other times, I feel him in that between awake and sleep, and I say wait just another minute.. stay and hold me a little longer, but by that time I am fully awake and he is gone...
I m slowly getting things done and will be glad to be done.
waving to all that pop in!
PS thank you to all that sent me Christmas cards, I did not send any..... but I think of you all!
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